Day Two

Dear Fat Diary,

Well, last night I did pretty well. I did have water with lemon, and I had steak tips and rice with a salad. Not too bad. I didn't eat much rice. I ate all the salad and most of the meat pieces, but that was all that I wanted. I then walked around for about 30 minutes or so while looking for something for BB to give to his teachers for Teacher Appreciation Week. Not too bad. I have done better, but I have done much worse, too.

Last night, BB and I decided to try out the juicer. We made a juice out of carrots, apples, and beets. I think I will leave the beets out next time. They tasted like dirt. Yuck. I am trying to add more veggies to my diet. If I can have at least one power-packed juice per day, and still eat whatever veggies I eat throughout the day, then I am doing pretty good, I think. I am also trying to make the juices to help GG get stronger. She is so weak and out of it. She is in the nursing home now, and I went today at lunch to see her. She was asleep most of the time I was there. She kept waking up and saying, "Ok, let's go." She finally got tired and she went to bed. It was so sad to see how weak she has become. I love her so much, and she has been my buddy for so long now, so just the thought of losing her kills me. I don't think anyone understands the bond she and I have. I am not sure she knew who I was when I first got there, but after she woke up a couple of times, she knew who I was. It just breaks my heart.

Also, today, I found out that my Dad has a brain aneurysm. He drove up here from Alabama so he can go to Emory. His appointment isn't until June 5! But, I think they are going to take him in through the emergency room, so he can get seen ASAP. I love my Dad dearly, and I am terrified that something might happen before they can get to it. They said it was on the small range, but smaller and stranger things have killed people. I just don't want to lose him either. That would kill me for sure.

This weekend is my birthday, BB's birthday, and Mother's Day. I will be 41, BB will be 9, and well, Mother's Day is always busy. Friday night, BB has a baseball game, and I am hoping that Saturday we get to go to a fly-in at a friend's neighborhood who happens to live in a subdivision made specifically for people who own planes and helicopters. It has its own airport! BB will LOVE that! :)

Well, tonight I don't know what we are eating, but I will make sure it is healthy. I have to run. I have to go get the kids before my Dad gets here. Wish me luck!

See ya later, Diary!

Just the beginning...

Dear Fat Diary,

So, I guess I will start off today as Day 1. I am once again on the track to lose weight and get healthy. I am currently at 262.5. I started out at 267 about three weeks ago, and I have decided to drink more water, move more, and pay more attention to what I eat. I think just doing that has helped me lose the 4.5 lbs and keep it there instead of fluctuating up and down the scale. I have traded in my beloved Mountain Dews for water. I still have a small sweet tea with the occasional lunch or dinner, but I try to do that only once a day. I am leaning more towards just drinking water, now, though. It feels cleaner going through my body. Haha!

I have decided to move more, and by that I mean that I walk when I have the chance, especially while BB is at baseball practice. I walk while he practices, unless I am running DJ to practice. But, regardless, I do try to fit in more walk time instead of sitting and "resting." I am making myself get up out of my chair to play baseball or basketball with BB or to play volleyball with DJ. I want to move more because I feel better and I sleep much better. 

I am watching what I eat because I have read so much about how changing your diet can help you in so many ways - not just weight loss. I am eating more meals at home, which is helping me to save money, too! I am trying to closely watch what foods make me ache (osteoarthritis, here) or feel badly (tummy issues or overall malaise). I love drinking milk, but I found that it has some inflammatory properties. So, I stopped drinking it for a while, and I stopped aching every morning. I drank some milk a couple of weeks ago, and the next morning, I woke up feeling achy in all my joints. Since then, I have pretty much given up drinking milk. I still have the occasional glass from time to time. I am now noticing that bread tends to give me some issues with aching, bloating, and general malaise. I am thinking about giving it up as well. I have already cut down on sugars and snacks, but I won't deny that I have the occasionally bite every couple of weeks. And, the funny thing is that I have noticed that when I do take a delicious bite of sweetness, it becomes almost too sweet. This past weekend, I had some small chocolate squares that were individually wrapped, so I had a notion to pop one in my mouth. The sweetness was too much, and I ended up spitting it out. It was too much. LOL :) I ended up with an apple and some peanut butter instead. So, slowly but surely, I am getting there.

Let's see, I am supposed to list my goals. Well, my ultimate goal is to be healthy, active, fit, happy, and making healthy choices for myself and my kids. I don't know if I want to put numbers with it because if I don't reach that "perfect" number, I don't want to feel like I am not a success. Don't get me wrong...I would love to be in a size 4, but I haven't been in a size 4 since I was in middle school! And, I was healthy all through junior high and high school. I would love to be down to 130-140. I would be happy with 145! I just want to get in that range, how is that? Short term goals would be every 5 lbs lost. I am close to my first goal! Yay, me! 

Anyway, I am writing this diary to keep a record of what I am doing, where I am going, how I am feeling, and notes about the things I deal with each day. I want to be able to look back from time to time to see what has worked, what hasn't worked, what I was doing, what I wasn't doing, and to see my thought processes. I am hoping that when I reach that ultimate goal, I can look back and see how it all happened. 

Later, Fat Diary! Off to nom nom with Mom and the Monsters. :) I promise to eat healthy tonight and drink water!